Slaves Without Rights

Well you don’t really know the difference between wrong and right and you don’t know how to resist temptation that comes around you. Even if you want to do right foolish people can cause you to do foolish things. Well sometime when I’m off duty some of the guys say lets go up on the hill seven months, and you are not tired of being locked up on this base. Lets go up on the hill and look at girls you don’t have to drink, but I would always say no to things I used to do. I don’t do them anymore but they would always go, but I didn’t use to worry about it. Because I am a changed man not turning back, but still yet how long am I going to keep this good decision up.Well after a long time watching the guys coming and going on the hill, and talking about the good things up on the hill. I start thinking about that bad time we call a good time, and then I start praying like I never have before: “Father God please hear my cry and give ears to my supplication. Lord I know that you are the only real power, the maker, the creator, the giver, and the taker. So I pray that you will take away all these wrong thoughts and temptations and just give me health and strength. For the right reason, to do he right thing, in the right time, and in the right place. In Jesus precious name I pray amen.” Well let me tell you something that I’m almost ashamed to write, but I’m going to write it anyway. Because it’s the truth, can you believe that after seven hundred and thirty-four days without taking a drink of alcohol? I started thinking why am I just sitting here and waiting on old age. I don’t have a wife or any children. I’m leaving and I went to my boss and told him, sir I severed my two years I want to go home now sir. He told me he would work on it, and at the end of three months I was free to go home. Well let me tell you I will never forget that date April 6, when after almost three years. I took that first drink of alcohol again. I started asking myself if there would ever be a happy day in my life. Every time I try to walk in the Light the Darkness always come cover me. Now I’m back to my hometown in Corn Island, where I was born and grew up. As a man now I’m back to my civil life again. But the bad part is I’m drinking again I’m back to my civil life. No military exercise to do, nobody to tell me to start eating, and after to minutes to stop eating. That’s whether you have done eating or not you had to stop eating. But what about the every day drinking? Well I’m a well-know man in my hometown and a good seaman.Several of the owners of fishing boats said to me what happened man did you just decide to drink yourself to death. Why don’t you stop that foolishness and lets go back out to sea again? Well I would always answer by saying today is the last day I’m going to drink. But things went on like that for a while, but finally I did stop again. My problem is not to start drinking, but to stop drinking when I start.Well after thirty-four days of not drinking. An old classmate came to me and said did you stop drinking or are you broke now? I told him that I didn’t drink anymore I was just feeling sick. He told me he needed a man to go to sea with him next week. But when I started drinking I didn’t know how to stop and that he wouldn’t be able to depend on me. I told him he could check me anytime he wanted. So the old week was over and the new one began. I was ready to go to sea on that bright Monday morning. We left at night for forty-five days. Well we are back at the port everything is fine. Life was good going to sea for a month, sometime for a month and a half. We did that for almost a year and four months. The captain decided that we were going to Dry Dock in Jamaica. So we clean the boat and got ready for our trip to Jamaica. After three days we finally reached Jamaica. We have been held up in Dry Dock in Jamaica for two months. After we returned back home to Corn Island we started preparing to go back to sea again. Just like the rest of the time I started thinking why am I doing this to myself? One part of me saving lets go take some drinks. But I always refuse the temptation to do so. Because I know once I take one beer, how long would it be before I stop drinking and working again. Who knows, I personally don’t know how long it would be before I would stop. So I didn’t want to start again. So I decided to hold out from drinking. So I took time to think of something else to do so I could occupy my free time. I needed something to do, so I could stop thinking about drinking. So I started dating a girl and everything was pretty good, but look how bad things can come in pretty packages. Like any poor young man starting life. I never had the money to build, or buy a house, so I rented a little house. I always wanted to be on my own and by myself. I’m a man who really don’t like the family and in laws thing. Well I started saying to myself at last I found happiness without drinking. No more bad feelings, or hangovers, or not being able to get work for a long time. I started saying to myself look how I was wasting time and could be happy without drinking or dancing. Not knowing that this was just a temporary punishment and sorrow the good lord has sent to me in a pretty package. But dear readers and friends let me remind you of something important. Anytime we try to play with the lord he punishes us in a way that will hurt the most. He will give us the things that we hate the most and take away the things we love the most. Well I will explain what I mean by that a little later. Let me continue to remind you don’t try to play with the Lord. Because he is a jealous God and he will punish us in a very bad way. Well let me continue to tell you about the sadness that came to me in the shape of gladness. But when I stop to think about the sadness that came to me in the form of gladness. Then I stop and thing about all the promises that I have made to the good Lord and fail to do them. Now I’m going to tell you how something comes in a honey bottle without giving any warnings. Well the girl and me was going on for a long time, and for me everything was going good. I would go to sea as I usually do, but a man is a fool for what he don’t know sometime. When I would come home from sea there would be no woman or no food cooked. She would reach before I could say anything to her she would start cursing me out. Talking about this woman and another woman.